Even if i lost sanity..

7 11 2009

That I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy
that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you..

Alanis said it best, can a person ever be good enough no matter what? I think that would make the world perfect, it would make everything Ok. Why can’t i be good enough unless i lose that extra weight, why can’t i be good enough when i’m mad, when i’m losing my ability to think straight, when i’m furious, when i’m tired, when i’m not making sense. Seriously, why can’t i be good enough when i’m not in the mood to go out, when i’m finding it hard to concentrate, when i’m having a million problems, when i can’t control my day, when i can’t erase my yesterday, when i’m lost. Why can’t i ever be good enough? Even in my best times, not good enough. Is it me? Or is it you?


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9 responses

8 11 2009
asoom

I LOVE LOVE this song.

Now get out of this mood and go listen to something to perk you up. I suggest “hands down” by dashboard confessional to help with that

8 11 2009
Dee

Thanks for the suggestion girl :) .. not sure it helped much though hehe….bas i’m open for suggestions any time :D ..
thanks for dropping by :)

9 11 2009
mohammad

i think we (the humans) always ask for more, it’s like pursuit for perfection,
if everything were good enough, then the one won’t develop him/herself and the surroundings, hence nothing new in life to do or have ambition for, don’t you think? it is good to have self-satisfaction about my life; but why not better work, life, house…..?

9 11 2009
Dee

Yea i agree, one must always strive to be better, but it should never be because they’re not GOOD ENOUGH in the first place.. there’s a difference between this and that..I’m not talking about perfection here, no one is perfect and everyone should always try his best to be, but no one should ever not be good enough.

12 11 2009
L. Mardini

I believe it’s all a state of mind, it’s about that moment at the end of the day, that moment when you sit around and evaluate your day and show your appreciation for yourself, your appreciation of what God gave you today, what He taught you, and what He helped you through… it is at these moments that you know how important you are to the people around you, to the world, and most importantly to you… and how you fit in it perfectly.

If you don’t have those moments, you should find the time. It could be at sunset time, at night on the house’s roof looking at the stars… or anywhere you know you can turn into a totally spiritual being in.

13 11 2009
Dee

well it’s kind of hard to see that side of things or to find that place 5osoosi when u have a full week and u don’t have the time to think or do anything and you only have this tiny room and nothing else and no one else….you barely sleep a couple of hours a day and you have lectures from 8 till 4.. its just the environment and everything else isn’t helping much you know..

13 11 2009
L. Mardini

Yet we find time to waste online, right?
I think we should make it our main goal to find this time and to be spiritually connected with our selves… only then can we enjoy design! :D

13 11 2009
Dee

ughh laith! itdalaksh itda5ili il design wil internet bil mawdoo3! zine5555 >_>

13 11 2009
L. Mardini

zan5a la7alek. :P

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